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I decided to revamp my site’s content here after much deliberation with myself. Let’s discuss why. 

I discovered my love for writing a few years ago while suffering intense burnout from my job. I was simply going through the motions, and desperately wanted to do something else with my life. That’s when I signed up for the Digital Marketing and E-Commerce Certification from Google, Inc. 10/10 recommend, buy the way.

Anyways. I learned to blog while I finished the program with an A. I come from a family of award-winning writers, storytellers, creators, healers, and fighters for the underdog in various walks of life. Some things are just in you, awaiting to be awakened at the most unsuspecting times in our lives—regardless of inconvenience. 

For me? My realization came about in my 40’s, furthering the proof that you don’t get an AARP card and qualify for a senior coffee at local restaurants when your 20’s are over. 

Change is good

While focusing on improving and growing as a writer has been a relatively new experience for me, communicating with people who simply wanted to be heard and understood has been something that I’ve done for ages. Not just as a cam host and a streamer, either. I’d go out in public, just doing my thing and minding my black business. Then before you know it, I’d find myself engrossed in conversation with a random person, pouring their heart out to me about whatever happened to be going on in their life that had been eating at them. It happens almost every time that I go out in public. 

I do my best to listen, and show some empathy during the unplanned, desultory conversations that I would land myself in. You’d be amazed at how showing someone that they matter and aren’t invisible despite what life has thrown at them lately can uplift their spirits. You never know what people are dealing with internally just by looking at them.

I’d offer advice if it was desired. Not everyone wants your two cents. Some folks just need to vent, and feel understood. I’d deliver some quick wit, motivation, and try to pour as much hope into them as humanly possible before parting ways. I found myself giving people the person that I wish that I had in others, besides my Uncle Martin. He’s an avid supporter of my bajillion projects by the way. 

Burnout is real

I mentioned before that I was burnt out from work. It’s easy to put on a front when you are paid to do so. It started getting to a point where I did enough to get by while battling health issues that stemmed from the decades that I worked in the industry. 

I don’t like to acknowledge the thoughts, feelings, and emotions that I felt during that time. I’ve always been the strong one. I prefer not to reflect on myself in such a negative light unless my past is necessary to mention in order to get my point across. So for the sake of this blog, let’s just mention that I was not my happy and cheerful self anymore. Something had to give.

The turning point

I stumbled across a few certification programs from the Illustrious Yale University’s Dept of Public Health and School of Psychology that spoke to me. They focused on wellness and making positive changes in one’s behavior to live a better life. I probably should’ve seen a therapist at the moment. However, I enrolled in the programs, hopeful that I would gain knowledge from my coursework that would assist in getting myself out of the rut that I was in. 

While I did learn key takeaways that have been a help in combatting burn out, I didn’t realize that I was crafting the foundations of this very website. Instead of writing down notes to study that would aid in passing my classes, I was busy jotting down content ideas to help others that leaned into the niche of wellness, centered around positive behavioral changes for gamers, streamers, and content creators. My articles on the Mental Health Aspects of Rage Quitting and Breaking Age Stereotypes in Gaming Culture was a hit among the readers. Then life happened.

I took a couple months off to prepare for a relocation to a new city that ended in a nightmare. I didn’t have much time to write, but I did have enough time to think about a lot of various moving parts in my life. While I thoroughly enjoyed writing wellness content within the niche of gamers, streamers, and content creators, I felt as though I was limiting myself. 

I went over my writing while editing it, thinking about how some of my work didn’t have to be geared towards a specific niche. That my articles such as Finding More Success by Celebrating Your Wins and why Rest Isn’t a Reward could be reworked to be for anyone who was compelled to read them, and not just for the content creator community. I love my fellow streamers and creators, however I want to be a help to those who could use an uplifting word, mixed with manifestation, and well-being from a clinical standpoint. 

I also wanted to insert more of my foolery into my posts. The main reason why I was unhappy with my life was because I’ve done nothing but work outside of raising my daughter into adulthood. I’d draw a blank when asked what I enjoy outside of work. The only answer that I could come up with is sleeping and playing The Sims. I knew that I had the awards, the nominations, the interviews in major publications, the hundred of millions of views on my “other” content, and found material success from my job. Did I know myself as a person? No. I still don’t, but it’s a work in progress. 

Choosing myself

I decided to get to know myself, and learn more about who I am as a person. I wanted to find activities that I enjoy, and to focus on myself in various aspects of my life—especially now that my daughter is out of the home, and living her life as a whole grownup. They grow up quickly. 

I have lived a very private life during my career, portraying a fantasy character who couldn’t be any closer to who I am as a person than we are to the moon. I wrestled back and forth on if I wanted to introduce who I am in this current season to folks who view me as the online persona that they’ve crafted. I’ve put myself out there to a ton of strangers as a streamer, and was warmly embraced in ways that my “other” work never could compare to. Allowing people to get to know the real me here-as I do the same-will take an act of vulnerability that I’ve not had to work past before. However, I look forward to it.  

While I will be deviating from my typical content, I won’t abandon it completely. I do have a number of mental health and wellness articles in the works that are for my gamers, streamers, and content creators. I wholeheartedly plan to crank out more in the future. Thanks to my readers who share my content, post links to my articles, and speak highly of my work within their communities of supporters. My intentions are to support you from more angles than a standard wellness blog ever could because I’m committed to providing resources that uplift, inform, and empower your journey.

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