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There were a number of people who were shocked that I decided to return to streaming, but the show of support has proven that I made the right decision. So before we get into why I went back live for the first time in over a year, let’s discuss why I even stopped streaming on Twitch in the first place. 

There really isn’t a long, drawn out, or dramatic story. I had an 11-hour birthday stream, which was one of my most watched streams in the 3 years that I had been a streamer there.  Twitch gave me a penny in ad revenue, and didn’t give me the earnings that I should’ve received for the gifted subs that I had proof of receiving. I tell people to document their earnings and stream analytics after each stream, because I have heard stories about how other streamers have missed earnings that they are quite certain that they should’ve made. You just don’t expect the misfortune of others to happen to you.  

The procedures, policies, and operations of how sites operate change often. It’s hard to keep up, especially if they don’t make a huge habit of notifying you of said changes. Since it takes ad revenue some days to calculate and show up in your earnings, I decided to wait it out and see if my subs would do the same. I thought that maybe they changed when they were credited. Well, I waited for a week and that earnings needle didn’t move a bit. I still had that sorry penny showed as what I earned for a stream that was half a day, and I was pissed.  

So, I collected my screenshots of my previous analytics and earnings from streams that were similar in stats, and proof of my earnings— basically anything that proved that they should’ve paid me out more than a penny in ad revenue. I try not to cuss here, okay? I also sent the amount of subscribers that I had, explained that I was not financially compensated for them, and sent off that judiciously worded email to their customer service. If you haven’t had to deal with Twitch’s customer service, I pray to the developers who made The Dark Pictures Anthology that you never have to.  

They credited me with $3.56 in ad revenue after an exchange of emails where they seem to not understand the plain English and numerical proof that I sent them about my bread. They completely ignored me when I brought up the subscriptions. They eventually stopped responding. Months passed, and I eventually stopped checking my earning because that needle didn’t move, and I felt that all was lost. They weren’t giving me my coins, and I had to get over it and cut my losses.  

I eventually posted a brief statement to my social media platforms that told them what happened without going into too much detail. I tucked my tail between my legs, and went to start a new business that I had been thinking about operating. 

I don’t Like to Admit Defeat  

So, about that new business that I started. I wrote a book after staring a faceless brand and blog. I focused on it for a year. I was so gung-ho about it at first, but it quickly wore off when I saw that people were not checking for anything that I was putting out really. I made sales, but I can’t front like my heart was in it. It wasn’t. I just didn’t see the growth needed to keep operating it, but I also just felt like it wasn’t what I really needed to do, and that is very sabotaging. You can want something to work out, but if it’s not meant for you then it just isn’t. So, it was no need in beating a dead horse. I cut my losses, sucked it up, and admitted that I needed to move on from it.  

I had thoughts of returning while watching a youtuber discuss her struggles as a content creator. I randomly checked my earnings, and saw that my gifted subs had been credited when I did a broader ranged search after not checking for almost a year. My heart sank. I felt a rush of excitement, hope, joy, and just all of the feels when I noticed that somehow that money just magically appeared out of the sky blue.  
 
I don’t know what date it was added on, and I don’t know why they even credited it months later when it usually shows up immediately after my stream ends. I closed it out, and haven’t gone back to pinpoint a date because I didn’t care. I took it as a sign that I need to get my happy behind back online, and do what I love, entertaining people and connecting with random folks all around the world who share an affinity for gaming. I enjoyed streaming, but I was also there to make money. So since they decided to finally do right by me(as my mod Terry says), I decided to get back on. 

Some Things Are Just In You 

I’ve been entertaining folks since I was 4 years old, and playing video games since I was the same age. That was when Nintendo first went on sale in the United States. Listen. I got some age on me, okay? Entertaining people when it’s all you’ve ever done is hard to stop doing for some. Especially when you enjoy it. So, I decided to rebrand with a new username on twitch and all of my social media profiles, and to revamp my blog by going into a different direction that what this site was initially for.  
 
It took me 24 hours to rebrand. I was on a mission. It’s funny in retrospect, because I’ve seen videos and posts pop up about how you can reinvent yourself at any moment. I just wasn’t expecting it to be my story. I deleted a year’s worth of blog posts that was associated with my previous business and started over. To my surprise, people showed up to this site with zero promo. I got a week’s worth of traffic in 24 hours. So, thanks for even coming by. You can read more about what’s to come by reading this blog: Welcome to My Blog featuring Gaming, Streaming, Tech and More!  Next I’ll be talking about a game that got banned on Steam, and it’s not for the reason you may think!

I developed a love for writing on a whim. My grandmother recently passed away. Don’t apologize. Our relation was very strained after my mom passed in the ‘90s. Grandma was a very decorated poet and author, who still spoke at events. She was also an opera singer at church. However, I digress. I feel like I inherited her love for writing, despite lacking the skill to write my way out of a paper bag. I still enjoyed it.  

Learn Some New Sh^&!

I took some online classes. I took a lot of them. I watched videos. I read books. I worked on my craft, and I began to teach myself how to be a better writer. I am 85% sure that she’d probably toss this blog in the trash can, after shaking her head in disdain with her cold and piercing eyes, trying not to hurt my feelings verbally as her facial expressions told me everything that I needed to know about the quality of my work. I’m still committed to working on my craft, though.  

I’m also committed to returning to streaming full-time, and getting my act together. I ended up with Bronchitis right when I decided to pick a game and hit the “Go Live” button. I’m currently coughing as I type. I used my time wisely by making new and shiny overlays for my stream in Canva. I worked on my social media posts, wrote some blogs, and made an effort to get reacquainted with my streaming software. A lot has changed in the 14 months that I have been offline. I look forward to getting back online to raise hell for my viewers. 

In Conclusion 

I am a strong believer in positive and negative energy, and how the Universe rolls. I also believe in doing what you feel like you are meant to do in that season. When you have negative thoughts, feelings, and emotions towards something you attract a negative outcome if you focus on the bs too long. You can hope until you are blue in the face, but if you don’t anticipate that it will work out, then it won’t. You cannot manifest both outcomes at the same time, and what you believe is eventually what you get. The Universe don’t give you what you want. It attracts what you think is the outcome. 

You find better success when you shift your thoughts, and align with what you enjoy and feel good about, focusing on a desired outcome as if it is so, and by doing the work needed to get there. Eventually you will see movement happen on your behalf if you believe that it’s already so. I didn’t feel like the business that I was running was really what I aligned with once I started it, and that’s okay. You never know until you try. I was called back to the stream, and I was inspired to keep writing. Do things with your whole heart involved, and put your foot on their necks while you are at it.  

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